Crying and hyperventilating on a park bench for no reason apparent to anyone but you realllllly gets those dicks up!
One minute, you're having a great date at a free outdoor concert, and the next minute, your heart is pounding and you feel like you are trapped in a Ziploc bag. "Playing it cool" is straight-up not in your repertoire. There's gotta be a country where "sitting at a bar staring into space and inevitably sweat-staining the pits of your expensive Madewell top while your brain moves 100 miles an hour" is considered playing it cool. Anyone familiar with benzos (that's an #INSIDER'S term for anxiety-alleviating tranquilizers) knows that they don't mix well with alcohol. Worst case scenario, you black out and wake up at the Formica table at an Arbys in another state. And you're so worried about whether they'll like you that you barely pay any attention to whether you like them. Every time a guy doesn't text you back in the early stages of dating you assume the worst and immediately go into crisis mode.
you break down and have a panic attack while they're hanging out with you? Teaching your new partner about the weird coping routine you have and absolutely cannot stray from.
Mine is talking to myself out loud and walking around my bedroom, and then having a snack and watching a very specific and very dumb TV show on Netflix. When they can't hang out because they already have plans, you're sure they hate you and will never talk to you again. Counting how many hours it takes for them to respond to a text.
Explaining that sometimes you don't text back for two days because your brain just sorta shuts down for a bit. Sometimes you just have to turn off your phone and shut yourself in because things just get too overwhelming and your brain needs a serious staycation.12.